How do I wish to grow older? How apropos, as this is where I am in my life. More grey hair each week, more permanent wrinkles, weight harder to get off. Yet, I feel so much younger than 44.
I wish to grow older gracefully with acceptance and courage. I'm 44 years old, & I'm at a crossroad career wise. I taught middle school fulltime before kids. I've been subbing longer now, than I taught on a full time basis. Subbing is different than having your own classes- it is more about management than teaching, at least at the school & age level I teach at. What I seek is something more fulfilling than subbing, yet can offer me flexibility for myself & my family. Teaching does not allow for flexibility, as you have to be there M-F from 8-3. And now a days, with CA state standards, & standardized testing, so much creativity has been taken out teaching - at least this is my perspective as a sub & parent. My passion has been photography for so long - but I'm holding back, still not confident to take a step, ask for an internship. Not feeling qualified enough. At 44 I want the courage to do this, to be like Julia Child & so many other successful creative women who changed careers at my age, who followed their passion. With age, I want to stop whining about this,( I'm to old to be a whiner), and have the daring to put myself out there.
So I will ask myself the question again. How do I wish to grow older : with COURAGE! Courage to make positive life changes, courage to accept each grey hair, wrinkle, roll around my mid - riff. Courage to be happy & fulfilled. Courage to find success in my passion. This is how I wish to grow old!
silent power
3 days ago
As Mami Pea wishes for herself so I wish for her as well...
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate with the struggle against the bear called, 'enough.' I think to live life with courage is a beautiful wish. As you wish for courage to be happy and find your path, so too, I wish for you.
ReplyDeleteHere is to courage, Ys!
ReplyDeleteAs you wish for yourself so I wish for you also
Lynna G
Wonderful wish, Mami Pea. I know your struggles because I am a retired teacher (in California) and never had enough time to honor my creative urges when I was working full time. Taking risks does take courage. As you wish for yourself, I wish for you also.
ReplyDeleteHa! :) Sister Californian, here! I can really feel for your situation as a teacher - knowing a couple myself, I know the challenges they face. KUDOS to you!
ReplyDeleteAnd here's a toast to becoming a Courageous Old Woman....as you wish for yourself, I wish for you as well!
Grace
As Mami Pea wishes for herself so I wish for her as well.
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