Wishcast Wednesday - What Do I Wish to Know

There are sooooooooo many things I wish to know. Sometimes I get overwhelmed as I try to take a class for this, or for that. I need to remember to take it one step at a time, so I can actually LEARN, instead of feeling overwhelmed & stressed by all of it.

So I wish to know how to draw better. I wish to know how to draw perspective - so things look right.

I wish to know how to become a graphic artist. What courses do I need to take? What kind of foundation should I have before I even consider a class? Can I take classes online? What is the financial investment & is it worth it? - meaning would I be able to make a living from it.

I wish to know how to use my camera-actually I wish to know all the technical stuff involved in being a great photographer. I don't want to be in a photographic conundrum when trying to capture a feeling, an idea. I wish to know how to take consistent, great pictures. I wish this, because along with the thought of being a graphic artist, is the thought of being a photographer & combining the two.

Now for the most important thing I wish to know! I wish to know inner peace. Sometimes I'm so frenzied inside - like today. When I get like this, I snap at people - well, let me be honest, my kids. This all comes back to the mom setting the tone in the house. I want my kids to be able to take things in stride, & not panic about things that can't be changed. I also want them to be able to handle disappointment & frustration with out wigging out. I do have self control, but I do lash out when I'm overwhelmed & stressed. Maybe this is really wishing to know how to less of an emotional thinker/reactor vs. someone who can pause, take a breath, and not be triggered at the slightest things.

I wish to know how to drop things - forgive with out holding a grudge. I wish to know how to be more diplomatic. Sometimes I feel I don't have time to tip toe around people, and feel like a bull in a china shop. I read yesterday in Monday Love, it is not about the things I do, but how I do them; it is not about what I say, but how I say them. I wish to know that finesse.

I also wish to know how to be in constant touch with my divinity. How do I tap into her daily? Is there exercises I should be doing? Is there classes I should be taking. I don't want her buried inside me any more. I want her free. I wish to know how to free her!