Me! I'm my biggest critic. I'm fat, ugly, mediocre, a terrible mom. The list goes on.
To be honest, when I first read the prompt, my immediate thought was my oldest child. I KNOW I need to be gentler with her. A beautiful, persistent, amazing, tenacious, passionate child. She drives me crazy! She has been my mirror, many, many, many times. I want her to be confident, her own person - NO Ethel to someone else's' Lucy. I want her to follow her dreams, to find her niche & go after it. I want her to have self love so she does not feel unworthy, & when she does, she'll be able to imagine herself out of it, shake it off, & not let it effect her self worth.
I need to find that middle ground. To deal with her in a peaceful manner when she riles me up. To remember that she is a mercurial being. To remember that I am her safe spot to sound off, get angry at, because I love her so completely.
As I wish to be gentle with her, I wish to gentle with myself. Applaud myself when goals are met, dinner is cooked, when fear is pushed aside, & when I have loving & tender moments with my child. To give three cheers when I pass up the delectable rich and bitter piece of dark chocolate. To appreciate who I am now, & how I am growing.
At this very moment - this is my wish. I'm throwing my coin into the well, squeezing eyes tight and concentrating all my mind's power onto this wish. Crossing fingers, rubbing my rabbits foot - hoping it will come true!
PS: Thank you so much for those of you have or are wishing for me. You words are so beautiful & powerful. Every time I read them, I get teary. Thank You! Thank You!
silent power
3 days ago
As Mama Pea wishes for herself I so lovingly wish this for her also.
ReplyDeleteSending loving peaceful energy to your and your eldest child too! XX
I don't think you'll have to rub that rabbit's foot very hard. It's out there, you've said it, now, gentleness will come. Gently.
ReplyDeleteAs Mama Pea wishes for herself, so I wish for her also...
ReplyDeleteAhhh, Mama Pea! I am soooo wishing alongside you...
ReplyDeleteAs MamaPea wishes for herself, I wish for her also!
As Mama Pea wishes for herself, so do I wish also. how beautiful and loving - mama bear you are...how sweet and peaceful i felt to read your post. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteAs Mama Pea wishes for herself, I wish for her also. Your words were so beautifully written.
ReplyDeleteYou have such an honest beautiful way with your words.. you have put yourself out there now go enjoy your daughter.. daughters are the best!!
ReplyDeletethanks for visiting my blog.. Deborah