How Do I Wish to Blossom

I was waiting for the prompt from Jamie Ridler this morning.  I felt like for last weeks prompt, I hurriedly did it so I could post before the sun set.  When the prompt came this afternoon, I wasn't sure how to answer it.  I'm still a bit blocked by how to go about it.  Why?  Shouldn't it be easy with all the dreaming I've been doing in the Mondo Beyondo class?

I would like to blossom three folds.  I would love for my confidence to soar.  Confidence in my ability as a beginning photographer who will learn how to consistently take great shots that tell stories.  Confidence in myself to start an at home business as a photographer/ digital artist.  Confidence in my ability to wrap my mind around all the technical stuff that is required of a photographer.  Confidence in myself to go out a solicit my work.

Confidence goes hand in hand with becoming more fearless.  Some how I became a coward.  Scared to take chances.  I feel like this transformation came when I became a mother.  But what kind of role model  am I being if I'm always quaking in my boots?

Finally, I'd love my creativity to unfurl.  I feel like most things I do, is a copy, or an add on to someone else's creative ideas.  I can build on things that inspire me, but I want my  creative muse to take root in me.  As each petal unfurls, opening to the sun, I want new ideas burgeoning in my brain.  Amazing, beautiful, lovely ideas that I can craft, photograph, create in anyway that tickles my fancy.