Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Wishcast Wednesday: What do I Wish to Celebrate?

What do I wish to celebrate? I would like to celebrate that I took a step toward my dream of becoming a photographer. I've been taking classes, but I feel like I really need hands on experience - to go out beyond my comfort zones, and work with a working photographer. So I emailed a photographer I admire and asked her if she would let me "intern"/"assist" her. I'm willing to do whatever grunt work I need to start moving in the direction I want to go. She got back to me saying she'd contact me at a later date when things slow down. So I'm thinking positive here that she will really allow me to work with her.

I read all my previous WISHCASTING, and I'm always droning about this. I feel like such a whiner! I know that if this is truly something I want, I need to take steps and put myself out there. Those steps are scary for me, because I am a more introverted person. Whether or not this photographer really is willing to let me work with her isn't the point. I'm celebrating that I took a step. If this falls through, I know that I can take this same step till I find someone who is willing to share their passion with me.

I wish to celebrate steps toward my dream.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Wishcast Wednesday: How Do You Wish to Grow Old?

How do I wish to grow older? How apropos, as this is where I am in my life. More grey hair each week, more permanent wrinkles, weight harder to get off. Yet, I feel so much younger than 44.

I wish to grow older gracefully with acceptance and courage. I'm 44 years old, & I'm at a crossroad career wise. I taught middle school fulltime before kids. I've been subbing longer now, than I taught on a full time basis. Subbing is different than having your own classes- it is more about management than teaching, at least at the school & age level I teach at. What I seek is something more fulfilling than subbing, yet can offer me flexibility for myself & my family. Teaching does not allow for flexibility, as you have to be there M-F from 8-3. And now a days, with CA state standards, & standardized testing, so much creativity has been taken out teaching - at least this is my perspective as a sub & parent. My passion has been photography for so long - but I'm holding back, still not confident to take a step, ask for an internship. Not feeling qualified enough. At 44 I want the courage to do this, to be like Julia Child & so many other successful creative women who changed careers at my age, who followed their passion. With age, I want to stop whining about this,( I'm to old to be a whiner), and have the daring to put myself out there.

So I will ask myself the question again. How do I wish to grow older : with COURAGE! Courage to make positive life changes, courage to accept each grey hair, wrinkle, roll around my mid - riff. Courage to be happy & fulfilled. Courage to find success in my passion. This is how I wish to grow old!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Wishcast Wednesday: What Do I Wish To Enjoy?

What do I wish to enjoy - me, my life, my husband, my children, and the process of growing.  I wish to be more appreciative of each, and more in the moment, so that I can feel the growth, the love, the joy, the delight that each brings.